Tenia un buen rato que no posteaba nada en mi blog y no ha sido por gusto, sino por falta de tiempo. Hoy al fin me doy el tiempo de actualizarlo, y no es por fresear, ni por hacerme el sangrón ni nada, pero desde el principio dije que este seria un blog bilingüe, y hoy me da por postear algo en inglés. Hace mucho que no escribo en inglés así que ténganme paciencia, y para quien no lee mucho en inglés, creo que es un buen ejercicio leerme hoy. Así que sin más preámbulos…. Enjoy.
It’s been a quite different week; It feels like riding a high-speed kart on a thousand feet tall mountain. I passed from teaching drums lessons, making quotations for costumers... to act in a TV Ad as an extra, doing a business trip, seeing live Mexico as a world champion, and meeting with the ex-girlfriend; so many different things and so many activities that painted a rainbow of emotions over the usual routine. Nevertheless, not all of these activities had the same weight over my thoughts and over my heart.
I had some key learnings this week that make me look at myself and realize how I’ve matured over the last years and most accurately, over these last months. I am still changing some stereotypes that life had sealed in me, maybe for good, maybe because of growing old or maybe just to adapt myself to the actual environments that God has put me though.
Overall, I am finally looking at some fruits at my job, it is still going a bit slow, but I am very pleased with what I’ve achieved in less than 8 months. I have lots of things to fight for and to be happy for, like going to the final of the u-17 World Cup and see Mexico win, for example. I guess we tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we do not have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.
There used to be some things that were very important to me, like having some trouble at work, or going into a fight with someone you love, that affected my mood on the short term, but not anymore. Now I have become into a more long-term-objective-focused guy. I’ve improved my honesty considerably; I am worried more about act/effect topics and karma implications on what I do and what I’d like people to do to me; I believe that something fabulous is out there taking shape and emerging calling your name; and I think that sometimes the dreams that come true, are those dreams you never even knew you had.
On other topics I think I finally reached a reasonable point at my quest of getting to know me better and what I feel; although at the end, life is not about finding yourself, it’s about creating yourself. With this in mind I came up with some conclusions:
It doesn’t make sense to let go something you had for so long, but it also doesn’t make sense to hold on when there’s actually nothing there. I guess that one day someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with someone else… at least that’s what people say. When we look back, we see that every kind of relationship pass through good and bad times, but you know what? I think that sculpts perfection in a relationship. There is nothing more relieving than to make peace with a kiss with someone you love after fighting.
So, overall, I am not forgetting that people doesn’t leave because things are hard, they leave because it is no longer worth it. When it comes to love matters, I think I am ready to handle my destiny. I’ve learned also one of the most important things when caring for somebody: There is one wrong thing we all do when we fall in love: we expect; and most of the times, it just ruins everything. I know it is hard not to expect any reaction from somebody, it’s in our human nature I guess, but as long as you can control your expectations in a moderate way, I bet we will all be happy.
Well, these are some reflections I’ve been chewing this week. Honestly, they made me happy and more secure about myself. I will leave you just with one phrase:
As long as you are awake; learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow.